Pastel Lady by Baron L. Dixon

 "What makes a woman strong is knowing she is beautiful, without looking around and comparing herself to anyone or anything else. If a woman understands her nature she understands that she is beautiful.

 

I have put together this slideshow with photos of me that span four years. As you will see my hairstyle has changed from being a brunette with short hair to blonde with long hair and many colors and lengths in between.  Each change was brought on by a change in how I view myself.  I have  struggled with my self image for a very long time. I have learned over the years that I am beautiful no matter what others say. It is a beauty that comes from within.

I am what the world calls a SSBBW (super size big beautiful woman) who loves and respects herself and is "very" comfortable with who she is. I am not ashamed of my body nor will I make any apologizes for it. My body is the "perfect" body for me at this moment in time. I do not know what the future holds but for now I am content with myself. My body has nothing to do with who I am; it is only the house I live in. I do not want to be defined or judged as a woman by the size and shape of my body but rather by the content of my character. I will not compare myself to anyone else nor can I be who they want me to be. As the lyrics to a song I wrote go "I want to be free to be JUST me." Below are some of the lyrics to that song. I hope someday to record it. It isn't playing here because there is no melody as of this writing.

 

Free To Be Me

I no longer want to be tied down to your insecurities
Living an empty life where there is nothing there for me
Or wrapped up in your lies of insult and pain
It’s time to break free from the memories that haunt me

 I may not be a beauty queen and that’s all right with me.
So why should I stay when you don’t want me around?
It’s time to break free, from all these insecurities
From the chains and lies that have kept me bound
Free, baby I want to be free.  Free to be just me

 It’s so hard to say good bye and I don’t understand why
I’ve lived in your shadow for so long but never realized
That who you say I am is not the me I feel inside
The truth is that there is more to me then meets the eye

 I may not be a beauty queen and that’s all right with me.
So why should I stay when you don’t want me around?
It’s time to break free, from all these insecurities
From the chains and lies that have kept me bound
Free, baby I want to be free.  Free to be just me.

© 2005 Lady Haque

 

 

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